I have been wanting to share this for the past 3 weeks or so.... yet I was waiting for the "right words". Tonite, I realized the "right words" may not ever come to me.....you see, I am probably over cautious when I want to express something. One of my beliefs is once something is said, you truly can't take those words back...I always believe that when you trust someone with all things about you, and trust they will never share those things with others and they eventually do, one of the worst things one can do, break that trust. Anyways.... like the title of this blog "A SPECIAL FRIEND" is about someone who, well, is very very special. We have been thru good, bad, deaths, and births. We have had long in depth conversations, we have enjoyed lunchs, we have enjoyed watching our kids and grandkids find their own path. We both have millions of memories, things we will never forget. No matter what, no matter what time, no matter what the circumstances, no matter how, and no matter why....it is simply a SPECIAL FRIENDSHIP.
One friday, not very long ago, we planned a lunch date at 12;30 across from my work. I have to admitt, it's not very often that I am without my phone, or have it out where I can see when someone calls or texts....yet on this particular day, i simply dropped my phone into my purse and honestly didnt look at it for almost 4 hours. Yes, we didnt just have lunch, we caught up on 2 plus years in a mere 4 hours! We both joked about they may charge us for a booth that we utilized all afternoon. Back to my phone, when i did look at it out in the car, i only had few texts and one missed call. It was an amazing afternoon...an amazing feeling to not let my phone take away any precious moments, minutes, or hours with my special friend. This person and her husband will literally give anyone the shirt off their back. Two of the most kindest people I know, the most sincere, the most loving and trusting people I know.
Not only did i work with this person at VODG , God had other plans for us....He crossed our paths, He knew all along what He was doing. Because of our amazing God, my life has been blessed over and over by having this "SPECIAL FRIEND" in my life.
Writing has been an out for me, it has been very theraputic for me, and it has maybe helped me get past my "social anxiety", well not passed it, but has helped me be able to let people see inside me. see my passions, desires, my dreams and goals, writing has helped me with 4 years and 52 days as a grateful recovering addict. Writing has helped me heal, helped me have less resentments, and has given me hope, given me strenght and given me the ability to start to open up to others. If you have read any of my blogs, you will be able to see that I'm not a poet, I'm not a great speller, yet i write from the heart, i have been trying to express my feelings, thoughts, ideas, as they come to mind.
Back to "MY SPECIAL FRIEND".. She on the on the other hand was blessed with the ability to not just express her feelings, but able to put some rhymn to her words. She wrote a poem for me, and yes she titled it "MY SPECIAL FRIEND" This poem has meant so much to me, i framed it, and have read it a million times... and I would love to share it with you. As you read the words from the beginning to end, you also will see how amazing our God is, and has everything planned out for us, even though He may not show us right now, today! We just have to trust and believe. I would like to share the poem she wrote for me, as it is still framed and sits out on my dresser. Actually, as we did some remodeling and painting, the framed poem meant so much to me, i put it in my safe. As you read the poem, know it was written at least 20 plus years ago.
"MY SPECIAL FRIEIND"
When I was little, my mom would pray, that God would send a special Christian friend my way.Through my life, I've had friends, far and near, but it wasnt untill the middle of my career, when I was at work, He opened a door, for me to make friends, acquaintances, and more. But with this person, we weren't friends at first, and just when I thought it could be no worse, she came to my house to give all the reasons why i should work for "Dr________________, just give it a try" this started a friendship, and the seasons went by, and when it came Christmas, I was so lonely I could cry. My friend could sense this loneliness in me, something my husband didnt even see. I had parents to spend time with and such, but to go there two days in a row was in his opinion too much. So my friend said "come with my family, there will be Santa Claus" Through 10 years of Christmas' that come and leave, my friend said you be sure to come over this Christmas Eve. Now this Christmas, God has blessed me with a child of my own, so I will start my family traditions at my home. I'll miss my friend, her family, and traditions this Christmas Eve. But I thank God and honestly believe He will bless this family, as they help others in this same way. I write this poem to my special friend only to say, I am so thankful my mom continued to pray, God did send a special Christian friend, and her family to me. Her name you probably know by now, is Sherri.
As I re-read this poem, it still brings warmth to my heart, tears to my eyes and joy to my soul. It's not often in life that one finds this type of friend. One that you can trust your life with, one that you can tell them any secret and they keep that secret, one that promies to not share you with anyone else, or one that says forever and ever and no matter what!
I am so grateful, so happy and content, so blessed, so much wiser and so lucky to have a friend that raises the bar and you know "NO MATTER WHAT"
Special friend, you do know who you are....and thank you for all you have done, all that you do, and most importanly just being my friend, for listneing, for your support and for unconditonally loving me and never judging. God is great and prayer is poweful and i just want to simply say "THANK YOU AND I LOVE YOU"
Because of His Amazing Grace.......
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